The Ilustrado is a student of Political Science in University of the Philippines Manila. His dreams are bigger and more ambitious than yours. He sees himself as someone perfect, incorruptible and superior from other human beings.
If given the chance, he would like to be the second Fidel Castro, Michael Crichton or Karol Wojtyla. In the near future, the ilustrado will be a lawyer. But his real future is becoming the Holy Father of the Roman Catholic Church.
And oh, his name is Cleve Kevin Robert V. Arguelles. But you must always call him as Cleve. 
Filed under: Cleve goes Personal, Manila Science | Tags: friendship, hope, love, parents, relationship, what is a friend?
I have so much things in my mind that i don’t really understand. Actually, it’s more of a question than things .. mostly, it’s about my purpose .. my purpose here on earth .. am i created just for nothing? of course not .. there is always a purpose for each and everyone for us .. it’s about who really i am .. i am lost .. i am really lost .. i don’t know myself and i can’t see the reason why i can’t know the real me .. it’s complicated and unexplainable .. you see .. i am trying to write this para gumaan ang loob ko .. it’s about the fucking things happening to me here in home .. i am not getting the life i want .. but it’s not a reason for me to mess my whole life .. there is always faster than the light, though science can’t prove its speed .. HOPE for me is faster than the speed of light ..
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there is another thing in my mind and it’s about the people around me .. finding people who really loves me .. i want to find someone who will love me for who i am .. accept the mistakes i have done .. someone who knows me .. and someone who will always truly love me.
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i will never talk to my parents again .. i hate them so much .. they always make me feel that i am worthless .. that i am a failure .. yes .. i admit .. i didn’t achieve something na maipagmamalaki ko sa kanila .. i am sorry .. i was very pressured and tempted that i did bad things to get high grades .. i was so desperate at that time .. but it’s always for them .. i always wanted to satisfy their standards .. to satisfy their expectations .. and that expectation is so fucking higher than what i can do .. there’s no point i can satisfy that .. even in my dreams ..
from this day .. i will leave every bad things i have done .. i will leave them now in trash .. i will now leave them in my past .. i will show them that i can achieve something .. this may be overused but .. i really want to achieve something for myself .. not knowledge but wisdom .. not medals but virtues .. not grades but true friends ..
mabuti nalang at i have friends .. i have friends whom i can talk to .. i have friends whom i can laugh with .. walk with .. i have friends whom i can enjoy my life with .. i think what a friend does to each other is to accept each others’ unique personality .. to appreciate the uniqueness .. not just like others who keep on comparing people .. you can’t compare two persons .. they will not be the same thus .. they will not be comparable forever .. i am very thankful that i have lanie as my friend .. that danielle is my friend .. that kristine is .. i am very thankful that i met them .. i am very thankful and will always be .. to them .. FRIENDSHIP.
Filed under: Cleve goes Personal
MY FATHER is a-not-so-good-Christian.
If he is with us, we can’t complete a whole mass. Especially last sunday that it is a palm sunday, we didn’t even last for about thirty minutes in the church. HE was irritated by the people and the hotness inside. I consider it as a SACRIFICE. Going to church is not for comfortability, it is for your soul to receive some food.
MY FATHER drinks and smokes.
HE does it always with us. I am just irritated. I hate people who drinks because they are very idiot. Ya know, what I mean is, they know the disadvantage of drinking liquors but then, they still do it. Isn’t it stupid?
MY FATHER is funny.
We laugh. We are always amaze by the fact that he can use his sense of humor in not-so-good moments.
MY FATHER is a bad shopping partner.
HE does enjoy eating at fine dinings or even fastfoods but he can’t enjoy shopping, even buying the groceries. He counts everything we buy, so he hardly allow us to buy our wants, even though he allow some of our cravings.
and LASTLY,
HE IS NOT A mascian.
HE wants me to sleep very early. As in, after 0900 pm he wants us to go straight to bed, turn off our cellphones and drowned ourselves to our dreams. AND THAT is bad. Most of the top students of Manila Science do not sleep for one special reason. TIME is not enough to do the things you have to do. So, SLEEPING is a waste of your time. I very well AGREE to that.
BUT of course,
he is still my father.
I love my father.
I follow the commandment.
SO.. I NEED TO FOLLOW HIM.
damnit!
It was very shocking.
I know, I am overacting. STEP UP 2 is now showing on movie theaters and I really really want to watch it. I am very excited about the movie that even sacrificing my studies is considered. Aww.
STEP UP 2. DANCING loves me and i love DANCING. lols!
anyone who can do that? [i am melting]
how about this one?
AFTER seeing this mouth-watering pictures, I decided to ask Lanie if she can go out with me and watch the movie after the graduation rehearsal. I know I can convince her, not because of my persuasion powers but because she don’t want to go home early. Ya know, teens nowadays are allergic to their homes.
We agreed that we’ll be watching the movie after the practice at Robinson’s.
But then, we ended up eating in Max’s because it’s already late.
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I JUST WATCHED STEP UP 2 yesterday, and I was so super amaze. Oh dear God, give me the ability to dance. TWO-THUMBS up! [if I have more thumbs, I will surely raise them too!]
I KISSED her, the lady of my life.
And for me, there is nothing more special than that because by kissing, i think she already showing how she truly love me unless she has other reasons.
My father is already here. I mean, he is now with us. This means, a lot of fun, and the usual things a father can enjoy. I am very happy this time because my mom promise us that she will not use her voice as something to destroy our ear drums. She usually get up earlier than us, she have to prepare our breakfast and after that she will try us to get up by using her oh-so-destroying voice. By the way, thanks to her voice, it made me run through the house.
The topic is about my father, about his arrival here.
I missed my graduation rehearsal for my father’s arrival. We really have to be early in the arrival area at NAIA because my father will surely be disappointed if he will be earlier than us. You know, the usual “pinoy greetings” that we have to do.
We made into the cab by 2:30 p.m, we’re hoping that we will be there before 4:00m p.m, my father’s arrival time. He boards the CX 919 plane. Yes, he boards a Cathay Pacific plane though cheap, it will save us bucks.
Back to where I am saying, we reached the NAIA arrival extension by 3:45 p.m. It was very annoying that the cab dropped us in departure area that we really have to walk to get to the arrival area.
While walking, I imagined something good, something bright and pleasant to my eyes. I got this ides from the book i am reading which actually features airport of foreign countries but of course, I imagine it to be competitive as to other airports.
BUT. BUT. BUT. But, the area was so dark and the AC’s are not functioning. So, what the hell am i doing here? The waiting area was not maintained though it cost us thirty bucks to get in. Is this the kind of airport that we can offer to receive those foreigners. I was very disappointed. *sigh*
I really want to write more but my eyes are already giving up. It will not be long before my eyes will shut. So, I will end my post here.
I know, yeah, that there is a VIP waiting area.
Filed under: Manila Science, Randomly Random | Tags: anything, arguelles, banana, binalot, cleve, cuisines, eat, experience, hertz, high, leaf, M2M, manila, new, nothing, pinoy, preservation, school, science
I was in a hurry by then. I badly need to satisfy my hunger. So, Lanie and I went to the nearest mall to find something that can satisfy our stomach.
It was a tough decision where to eat because we do really have a very limited budget, a very limited time and a very limited taste. We often eat in fast foods like McDonald’s, Kentucky Fried Chicken, Greenwhich, Kenny Roger’s and Jolibee. We do not consider Wendy’s because of it’s so detailed hamburgers. You know, I hate hamburgers with so much stuffs, like tomato, lettuce, onion, and any other foreign objects that are not yet known in my diet.
Since, time, money and taste is our criteria, fastfoods can’t be in the winning place because fastfoods may be the champion in time and money, fastfoods are still very limited to the same taste every fastfood can offer. So, fastfood do not satisfy the third criteria. haha!
We really want to eat in something we haven’t tried before. I mean, we always want our eating sessions special. So, after a thirty minute food hunting adventure. We arrived to this miniature booth inside the food court. So, it was just like any other booths there except for its way of serving the food.
The food is wrapped in a banana leaf. This is how our uncivilized ancient ancestors eat their foods. Basically, the banana leaf acts as a plate or sort of.
This store is “BINALOT.” They offer Filipino known cuisines in banana leaf wrappings. All meals are serve with a salted egg and tomato, a perfect dining experience for those who want to know how Filipinos really eat.
OMG. Do we consider this BINALOT STORE a fastfood? I think so. [sigh]
Next time your friends ask you out, consider BINALOT in your dining experience.
